A Lifetime Decision

I made a biggest lifetime decision - to start a family with Rak. 

Being together for less than a month and we actually discuss about marriage (eh, not so much) to babies, is that normal or too fast? 

Im feeling a little skeptical about the whole issue. I mean people who knows me well, knows I love kids. How adorable are they! But of course, having your own versus playing with the little ones who are not biologically yours, makes a huge difference- educations, upbringing, etc.  We have yet spoken about how to raise a child, neither of us is an expert in this department. Ive got simply no idea what is his views on raising one.

As for myself, i know what kind of mom I want to be, the kind of tolerance level towards my child's behavior... Expectations, of course.

I do spiritually feel that Rak can be a fantastic dad and perhaps he will do much better than me in the parental role. I bet if we are gonna have kids, Im gonna played the "bad, ugly... Unreasonable mom"...  Having said this, I do strongly agreed that Rak is super knowledgeable, much patience, higher tolerance nonsensical level... He cooks, he games... Whats more can I asked for?

I want a good daddy for my kid/s... Am i selfish? Haha!

To me, I just feel that he is the one who fits exactly what I want for my kid/s...  Enough enough... Haha! Im starting to sound as if im marketing him (oops! Sorry. He is definitely not for sales.)...

Back to the topic.  I am pretty excited about it, googled as much info as I can. Im really looking forward to share the special gift that belongs to us, how cool. Least to say, im fine with whichever plans we have as per discussions. But perhaps, for the time being, let us enjoy the process and the dating experience. 

Hmmm, baby...